Nov 17 2008

Am I Purpose Driven?

Published by Alyssa Avant under Just Me

It is my hope that this post does not get interpreted the wrong way.  However, I am writing it more for my own sake than for the sake of others.  Its topic is something that I just need to get off of my chest more than anything.

The thing is I am wishing, hoping, desiring more in my life.  It is not that I can’t be content with what I have, yes I do believe I have many things going well in my life, it is full of many blessings, but my inner desires, my deep down ambitions long for more.  Even more so I am very specific about the “more” that I am longing for, it is unlike you might imagine, in that it is NOT more money, no I do not believe that money could satisfy the desire for more that I have.  It is not more success even, though that might play a part, it is rather more “opportunities to serve”.  I want to seek my passion I want to live my life on purpose and with passion and because I get bogged down in the day to day I fear that I do not do that often enough.

I have been guilty of being driven by money, rather than living my life “purpose-driven” as I should. I am a Christian and therefore I am a “follower of Christ” and a servant of the Lord. I serve and worship a BIG GOD a God so big that I know He can do anything.  He is a God that can accomplish anything that He wants in and through me but I must submit to Him. I must realize as Rick Warren stated in his bestselling book, The Purpose Driven Life, that it is “not about me, but all about Him (Him being God).”  It is all about bringing glory to God not to myself.

Another thing that I do fear is that there are going to be things in my life that I must give up in order to truly “follow Him”.  That is most likely inevitable.  In order to go with God I must leave something behind.  What, I’m not entirely certain, quite possibly old habits, my own desires, but nonetheless and regardless of that I still want to go.  I still long to go to wherever God is leading.

Therefore, as I sum up this post, I want to declare that I desire to be more purpose driven, follow me on my journey, as I seek to get to where I need to be.

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Aug 10 2008

My Testimony

Published by Alyssa Avant under Just Me

I was just talking with my new intern at A Writer for Hire and she was sharing with me that I could learn more about her by reading  her testimony, she then shared the link with me.  She really has an amazing testimony and I like her tend to think mine is nothing earth-shattering but reading hers led me to share mine.  I already had it typed up from using it at an event about oh a little over a year ago so the dates may be a bit old, but here it is:

I have to begin at the beginning as they say.  I grew up in a Christian home; I was saved at the age of eight and was very fortunate to be one of the kids that was at church every time the doors were open.   During my teen years I was involved in everything the church offered from Youth Choir to serving on the Youth Council to attending Church camp and going on mission trips in the summers.  Growing up in Winona, I lived a pretty sheltered life.  Therefore, I did not realize that others out there didn’t have the same situation that is until I attended Modeling School in Memphis.  There I met girls from many different backgrounds and lifestyles.  Some of them came from homes drugs were present.  The situations were as different as they were numerous, and they were all very eye opening for me.

After attending Modeling school, I was chosen to attend an international modeling competition in Miami, FL to represent Memphis. There I saw and met even more people from very different situations than myself.  I was also put in the situation where I had to choose how I would present myself, The girls in line with me at the competition were all wearing what appeared to be tube tops for both their top and their bottom, revealing was more than true!  There I stood in line with these girls clothed from head to toe in my flare legged suit and boots.  I was stylish but I was completely covered!

Ok, you may be wondering, what does this have to do with ministry?  Well, a lot,  I realized through these experiences that I was fortunate and that I was different.  My experiences growing up in Church had made me who I was at 17 years old.  I was a confident, bold, Christian who didn’t mind telling those girls about my faith or why I had on more clothes than they did!  I understood that being a Christian meant being like Christ, honoring God with my body and my actions.  This began a passion within me to help other girls to understand why it was important to be modest, and to make Christ a part of their lives and their decisions for their future.  I had seen so many girls that were going down the wrong road that I wanted them to realize that they could choose a different path.

The girls I attended modeling school with looked at beauty much differently than the Bible speaks of beauty; they also found their self worth in a much different place than I was taught to find mine, in Christ.  I wanted them to have the relationship with God that I did and the hope for my future that I knew could be theirs.

A ministry for girls became a dream of mine way back then.  I also began sensing a call of God on my life back around that time, and even before that time.  In December of 1998, at a youth service I committed my life to full time Christian service.  At that time, I was unsure of what God was calling me to do.  I just continued to follow God’s guidance.  In 2002, after I was married and had moved to Carrollton two years prior I received the opportunity to do youth/children’s ministry with Carrollton Baptist, as many of you know I served there for over 4 ½  years.   God truly stretched me and grew me in this position and I developed an even great love for ministry, for teenagers and for children as I served there.

There came a time in my heart that I knew the girls ministry was what God was calling me to do.  BBDM was actually born in January of 2005 when I began pursuing speaking opportunities to speak to girls and their moms on my favorite topics of beauty, etiquette, modesty, fashion, etc.  I only did a couple of speaking engagements that year but God continued to inspire me with ideas.  One of which was to make the topics hands on  where the girls would not only hear me speak on a topic such as beauty from a Biblical viewpoint but also be shown how to properly apply makeup so that she could look great without overdoing it.  I also created a pampering session, a fashion show, a tea party, each paired with a topic.

The next January 2006, God blessed me even more.  He gave me the opportunity to have a website created and send out flyers to churches to let them know about my ministry.  This created more opportunities and in 06 I spoke 6 times.  During that year, God created in me a desire to do this full time.  I did not know how God was going to make it happen, but I had the strong feeling that he would.  In March, my pastor at our church resigned, and I began questioning whether I should stay on staff.  I prayed more in those months surrounding his resignation than I think I have ever prayed in my life.

During that time, I read the book “If You Want to Walk on Water, You’ve Got to Get Out of the Boat”, I began to realize that my “boat” or comfort zone in my life was my job at the church.  I knew God was calling me to be like Peter and step out of my boat on faith.  However, I didn’t do it immediately.  Even though I was unsure of my position at the church, I still hung on to it.  I went through the days in a fog, constantly wondering what God was doing and what I should do next.  I pursued other ministry positions in other churches, even in other towns, only to find dead ends.  I had at this point forgotten about my girls ministry because I didn’t think I’d ever be able to do it.

It was over in the fall before I began to think about girl’s ministry anymore.  It was at the Women’s Conference held every September at my church.  Becky Brown of Little Brown Light Ministries was the speaker.  I had prayed to God that through her speaking her would speak to me and show me what I was suppose to be doing.  God answered my prayer.  Anyway, through her speaking that Saturday and my thoughts and prayers I realize that God was saying, “Alyssa, you’re not prepared.” I began spending more time studying God’s word as a result.  God continued to pull at my heart, giving me a longing to speak and minister to girls and their moms.  He also gave me the inspiration to write and to create products.

During a sermon on the first Sunday of January, that our interim pastor preached on change I knew God was saying, “you have to make a change, you have to trust me and step out on faith.”  That day I told my pastor of my plans to resign after my baby who was due in March was born.  It felt as if a weight was lifted off me, God continued to bless.  He began filling my calendar with speaking opportunities and he inspired me to write.  Since January, I have been able to write countless articles, as well as a prayer journal devotional guide for teens.

Beauty by Design Ministries is off to a fabulous start.  God is doing what I knew he would do if I took that step of faith and that is he is paving the way.  He is giving me opportunities to minister to girls and their moms from a Biblical perspective on things that they enjoy but also maybe some topic that they struggle with.  Today’s society has a much different view of such topics as beauty, modesty, and abstinence than the Bible teaches.  My programs teach these topics from a Biblical perspective while giving participants the opportunity to have hands on fun in the activities that they love.  Each of my programs has a theme and topic that go together. I’ve had the opportunity to do Mother Daughter nights and retreats, girl’s nights and retreats as well as be the guest speaker at community events.

I am blessed to be able to use the Internet to reach an even broader market. I publish my articles online to many places visited frequently by moms, and I offer a weekly newsletter moms can receive via email with articles, devotions, tips and encouragement.

I am blessed to daily stay home with my children, but to also do what I love and that is speaking, writing and ministering.  I can truly say that I am where God wants me to be.

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Jul 25 2008

Having a baby…

Published by Alyssa Avant under Just Me

Changes everything.  I know this to be true, as I just had my third.  With each baby changes were made in my household and in myself.  I believe this one will be no different.  One of the changes I have noticed in myself, that seems to come on almost immediately but slowly fade away is that of being a better housekeeper. It’s the nesting thing I guess. I want everything clean and neat.  Maybe it’s the constant visitors to see the new baby, or a need to have everything around the new little one clean, but for some reason for a few weeks or so I’m a regular June Cleaver.  Unfortunately, it doesn’t last.

I am trying to figure out for the life of me how I can keep that quality around for longer.  But normally things tend to get busier as the baby grows, and is able to go with us and resume normal life rather than staying home so much with a newborn as we do at the beginning.

Has anyone else  noticed this? Or is it just me?

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Jun 27 2008

Got Confidence?

Published by Alyssa Avant under Just Me, Uncategorized

Bright smile “Confidence, I’ve got confidence, my Lord’s going to see me through”, lyrics to a song I sang often as a teen. This is the only confidence that is real in my life, the confidence I have in Christ. Confidence in self is something I have always struggled with, I think I probably hid it well but I have always had confidence issues. Behind my bright smile, I hid the fact that I was and am a shy person, who lacks the confidence I really need.

Sure things over the years have helped to boost my confidence, making the cheerleader squad in Junior high, attending modeling school in high school, meeting my husband, graduating from college, being admitted to seminary. But then I let those failures creep in, or at least they are failures in my eyes, the things I’ve left undone, create a lack of confidence in myself. It is only when I put my full confidence in and draw strength from God that I am able to remain strong and confident.

I am hoping that I can rely fully on the confidence that comes from Christ as I try to stay focused on God and His will and agenda for my life. I know that He has began something in me and in my life that is worth pursuing, worth following after. Another song, “He Who Began a Good Work In You” begins playing in my head….then the verse,

Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

Philippians 1:6

plays as well. The Lord puts all of these things on my heart and mind so that I will remain confident. I am going to continually go to Him because I know He can bring me confidence like no other.

What about you, what gives you confidence?

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Jun 16 2008

Yes, It’s Real

Published by Alyssa Avant under Just Me

Yes, it’s all real. Sometimes people ask, “How real are you on your blog?” or “Are you the same person in real life as in online /blog life?” To which I must answer a resounding “YES”. This is me, the real me. My life is an open book. I am not hiding anything, not running from anything, not trying to escape anything when I blog. I blog because I love it. It is fun, it allows me to write without having to worry about grammatical errors or being right or wrong or if it sounds right, it’s just my thoughts that is all it is.writing

I also continue to blog because I LOVE the blogging community. Never before have I made so many connections with so many people. Moms, momprenuers, WAHMs, SAHMS, others, all who blog and have this as our sometimes only connection but its amazing to see. I’ve met moms who are Christian but I’ve also met some who claim to have no religion yet I still connect with them. It’s awesome and I love it.

I feel it’s a great way to share and you know what every single testimony I share and blessing that I tell about is real. God is working in my life just like I’m telling you. I am struggling with the issues I blog about I am not making them up. I do set the goals I set, I don’t just put those up here to look good. This is real and I am loving every minute of being real with you.

How about you, is your blog real, do you love blogging, do you enjoy the mom blog and other blog communities you are a part of, is the online world as much a part of your life as the offline…. how do you feel? Tell me about it here or blog about it and return here to post the link in the comments. I want to hear from you!

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