Sharing My Deepest Thoughts

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A week ago today I gave birth to my third child. For the first time ever I journaled just before being induced. Here is my journal entry:

This is the first time I’ve ever journaled or written anything down just before giving birth. With my oldest, I was young and scared only 23 and had no clue what awaited me. It proved to be 2 long days in a hospital bed before giving birth to my firstborn, a rambunctious little one.

With my baby girl, I was so excited and anxious to see her I had planned out everything in detail for her, clothes, nursery theme, none of which I thought much about with my son.

With Brady, whose mere existence caught me by surprise I feel so different. Anxious yet in a new way, I’m more prepared more aware and therefore more reflective and introspective. This is after all in my plans the last time I’ll ever experience this. I do not plan to birth anymore children. After all this one took me by surprise. I believe that God has something planned, bigger than my plans for this child, because it was HIS plan. And, his plan are always greater than ours.