My God Shall Supply All My Needs

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It is a verse I’ve read many times,

“But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”  Philippians 4:19 KJV

No matter how many times I’ve read it, I must admit I have still found myself questioning it, still sitting at my desk adding the numbers and trying to make them work myself. Even though I’ve seen more times than not in my 10 years of marriage where God has done his “miracle math” supplying all our needs.

Tonight God supplied one of his “miracles” for us, it may not seem like or sound like a miracle when you here it but to me it was… tonight as we were leaving to go with my in-laws to eat pizza for my daughter’s birthday (she’ll be 3 on Tuesday) our van wouldn’t start. My husband immediately thought it was the battery. We had my father-in-law give us a boost and on the way for pizza we went to Auto Zone for a battery.

“How much will this cost?” I inquired of my husband on the way, he mentioned we had gotten the battery not even 3 years ago when our van had the same mishap just before a family vacation. I remembered and we talked about how short of a life the battery had lived.

We arrived at the Auto Zone, my husband went inside and soon came back out motioning for me to pull up to the front of the store. The worker was with him toolbox in one hand, new battery in the other. I yelled out the door to my husband, “do you need my checkbook?” He replied, “Shouldn’t.” I didn’t say anything but wondered. Then he informed me that the battery was under warranty.

When he got in I was whooping and hollering we had just gotten a new battery for —– $0 thanks to the warranty and to “my God for supplying all my needs.” AMEN.

Just Be

You may have noticed over the past few weeks that I have been making a lot of changes.  These changes were spurred on by God and I am feeling good about them, however there are some thing still that I struggle with doing or rather NOT doing.  I am a “doer” by nature.  I love to stay busy and have the bad habit of piling too much “to do” on my plate of life.

I have over the past few weeks taken a great deal off of that “pile”, resulting in sometimes feeling a bit light and that has tempted me to add something back to the plate or find something new to add to the plate.  I’m trying terribly to resist.  God is desperately pleading with me to just be.

I worry about the things that go undone . . .He picks up the pieces.

I worry about the money that isn’t made . . . He provides our every need.

“Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Matthew 6:33

I Set My Mind To . .

Funny how I’ve always been taught, “you can do whatever you set your mind to.” Yet, in doing even the simplest of things, namely taking care of my home, I struggled.  The truth is, my mind nor my heart was in it.  I was focused on other things, good things mind you, mostly ministry and creating an income for my family, but nonetheless my mind was elsewhere, and we all know where are thoughts are there is our heart.

For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. Matthew 6:21

I am grateful for how quickly things can change, for the fact that I can set my mind to changing and I can do it. For the fact that I can call on friends to pray, they do so and I feel their prayers. My heart and my mind and my treasure are in a much different place than they were a few weeks ago and for that I am grateful.

Thank you Lord for being a God of second, third and fourth chances and thank you for allowing me to do. . . whatever I set my mind on.

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

Is Approval Addicting to You?

I think it might be addiction, in fact I’m almost certain it is which is why I have read a book on the topic before, that book was called “Approval Addiction” and I truly believe I may be addicted to approval.  Mostly the approval of others, sometimes sadly even those I do not know personally.

Right now we are experiencing some financial woes, it is not anything new.  As a freelancer my income goes up and down and is never “consistent” to add to that my husband is now being paid bi–monthly rather than once a month, while we believe we’ll like this arrangement once we get used to it for now it is a bit scary.  Mostly because we have two big bills at the beginning of the month.  We do have debt unfortunately and without my income we wouldn’t be able to pay on it period.

This weekend I went to a few “message boards” that teach and speak of frugal living and getting out of debt as a source for information, unfortunately because of wanting to “please” those people I get into a long drawn out conversation via message board.  Sadly, I feel that they twisted and turned my words and my situation until it wasn’t even something I recognized.  Why do I allow myself to be drawn into this?  Why do I even care?

My husband and I also had lengthy conversations this weekend about his expectations from me.  One of the main things he wants from me is an “orderly” house.  Notice I didn’t say clean.  I am NOT a good housekeeper, I know this, he knows this and so we’re hoping “orderly” Is a happier medium.  I am a pretty organized person, but I’m also a bit “messy”.  Not sure that even makes sense, but if you knew me as well as my husband does, you’d understand.

This past week has been a week of soul searching for me and while I want to be “approved of”, I certainly don’t want to try and please everyone because obviously everyone’s out look is different and people certainly see your situation differently than you see it yourself.

I’m grateful for a Godly person whom I spoke to on the phone a week ago, because she listened to God and as a result spoke to me through this Godly influence I have been making some changes in my life.  I hope that it is only wise and Godly wisdom such as hers that I listen to and that I will seek God’ approval above the approval of others.

Can you tell this really bothers me?  Have you ever dealt with this type thing?  Share it with me.

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