Committing to Pray for Him

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I have to be honest, when I get upset about something in my home and marriage I don’t often think of praying.  I often dwell and mull, but pray I do not.  I love my husband very much and feel that I have done him a disservice because I have not done something I should have been doing for ten years now.  That is to pray for him.  Sure I’ve said prayers for him but to diligently pray for him daily I have not.

I am changing this and beginning today I am committing to pray for him daily.  I know this can only do good things for our marriage.  I found an awesome resource this morning when searching for devotions and scriptures on this topic.  It is a downloadable form about praying for your Husband and 31 Days of Prayer.

If you’re like me and need some guidance on this you should go download the form.  I want to be this woman of scripture,

“Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.  She brings him good not harm all the days of her life.”  Proverbs 31:11-12

I know with prayer that can be possible, but without it I can surely never succeed.  I’m committed, do you need to commit too?

I’m Not Perfect

I feel like everyone around me sees me as perfect, or at least they see me as always “striving” to be perfect.  In all honesty that’s the way I’ve been living for too long.  Striving … to be perfect . . to be what everyone else wants me to be, even what I thought I wanted to be, but not ever giving myself a chance or an opportunity to just be, to live, to breath.

My whole life I’ve been living up to perfectionist standards, but I am finally giving in and quitting that rat race.  God has been speaking to me for a long time about giving up perfection.  Unfortunately for me, I haven’t listened, at least not until now.  I am officially quitting the rat race, no more chasing after too many things and never giving everything what it needs.  No more sacrificing my family for my own desires, I am finally realizing what God desires most from me, and that is to just be.

Tears rolled down my face when I finally realized that what I need more than anything is to give in to God’s promptings to be – be a wife, be a mom, be me. That means I’m giving up some of what I feel called to, what I love, but I know it won’t be forever, but for a time it is going to be necessary.  Because I love my husband and my children more than  that. I’m giving up spending so much time pouring myself into Beauty by Design.   I will still speak on occasion, but the blog, newsletter and products aren’t going to be what I pump myself into each day anymore.

As I’ve been seeking to find ministry to do and running myself ragged trying to do it, it’s been right under my fingertips all along and I have sadly been ignoring it too much of the time, or at least giving it my second best.  Just recently, I told a lady in my church I could no longer serve in a position because I didn’t want to give it less than 100%, but I’ve been giving my family less than 100% of me for a long time.  {gasp} Did I just say that?  Yes I did because it is true.

No more.  I have admitted my wrongs to my husband, I’ve admitted my wrongs to God and now I’m admitting my wrongs to you.  First things must come first,  I’m not perfect, but I am committing myself to God, to my husband and to my babies, fresh and new.

We Learn the Hard Way

Is it just me, or do we sometimes have to learn, the hard way?  I know that I spend a lot of time on the computer.   As most of you know I work online and therefore spend a great deal of time on the computer.  In addition, I have accumulated a good many friends online that I “socialize” with throughout the day on Twitter.  For me, it’s second nature and I don’t think much about it, or at least I didn’t until last night.

We spent the night before Valentine’s Day with friends, 4 other couples in fact that we like to get together with often, friends from church who we admire and respect.  One of them is the youth and children’s director at our church, he was going to be planning a Valentine’s banquet for our church that was held tonight and was going to be doing his version of the Newlywed Game at the banquet, so last night, he wanted to “practice” on us.  He did and the game was a ton of fun.  Unfortunately for me, it was also very “telling”.  One of the questions posed to the husband’s was, “what one habit does your wife have that you cannot stand.”  My husband had written down his answer and I then had to “guess” what it was.  As much as I hate to admit it, I knew the answer right away.  He hates that I stay on the computer so much.  Of course, I was dead on.  I practically hung my head in shame.   The truth, as we all know, “hurts”.

This is something I knew but was not taking to heart.  Mind you I will now.  I told him this morning I was making a new rule for myself.  I won’t be on the computer when he is home unless it is absolutely necessary for work.  He was so sweet to say, “I didn’t mean you couldn’t be on it at all.” But, nevertheless I realize I must set limits.

I tweeted about this earlier today and several ladies agreed that their husbands would say the same thing.  Would yours?  Maybe we can hold each other accountable.

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