May 19 2008
Can You Be Too Blessed?
I know that seems like an odd question. I meant for it to be thought provoking. Because, it is the way I am feeling today, blessed, but at the same time overwhelmed, a little sad, and frustrated. The whirl of emotions is strange to say the least.
Normally on Sunday night I do my weekly planning session. Last night hubby and I were researching flights to North Carolina for the She Speaks Conference which we’ll be leaving for exactly 1 month from today. Yes, I know I”ll be 36 weeks pregnant, but I have the clearing to go as long as things are fine at that point, so I am planning to go.
Anyway, with the excitement and possibility of flying instead of driving 9 hrs to get there I just could not focus on my planning for the week. Another thing that has me feeling “off” is that my son’s last official day of school was today. Tomorrow we take him at 8:45 am and he performs in a little play which we’re invited to and then we have cake and he comes back home with me. I am getting a little nervous about how I’m going to get any work done with my son home ALL day this summer, which will officially start for him on Wednesday.
Finally, this morning I wake up to bad news. At 8:30 am a childhood friend of mine’s daddy has a massive heart attack and dies in route to the hospital. She is in California expecting twins and has had a hard time getting pregnant so we’re not sure she’ll be able to fly home. My heart aches for her. We’re not even 28 years old, these are her first “children” due in December and her daddy won’t be there to welcome them into the world. Sooooo sad to me that I cannot seem to concentrate today.
I am trying to make myself feel better about doing nothing today, but I was planning on doing little or no work tomorrow with my son’s program and all that I feel a bit overwhelmed. So today, pregnancy hormones kick in as I feel a whirl of emotions.
I realize it is a time to count my blessings, 2 healthy happy children, my daddy is still here on earth to enjoy them and so is my mom, summer is here, I’m going to the She Speaks Conference in one month and couldn’t be more excited. Am I too blessed to be stressed?? I think so.
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Sorry to hear about your friend’s father. That is difficult to experience.
I remember I was about in my late twenties when I felt like death was coming far closer than I had ever experienced before. Like you I had a best friend lose her father to cancer - he was in his 50’s. I can’t imagine life without my parents - they seem the same age to me now as they were when I was young - kind of funny how that happens. Anyhow I’m blathering on to let you know that I can relate to that feeling of sadness the comes on you when you’re first startled by this kind of loss in your close circles.
But being the spiritual person that you are you are doing the healthy thing and recognizing all that you have to be thankful for.